1 year since i was diagnosed....emotions still fairly high, through the worst of it yep
forgetfull now all the time if i write a note i forget where i put it, breathing is starting to get worse again. A mention of a "LOADED SPLEEN" not sure what the doc was on about; i kinda joked and just looked blankly at him.......getting married in may next year that is if she doesn't kill me for being a wally or forgeting where something is or something i should have told her, not the i love you bit but normally a message i was supposed to pass on lol..........................cant sleep things do worry me i am only human and you cant put that fake smile on all the time ( you start to get a face ache and frown lines)
did i mention i am getting married lol......am so happy, she is amazing, a bit neurotic at times ( god how i hope she doesnt read this till i have done something wrong and deserve a slap across the hands )...................
* starts singing songs in his head to amuse himself*
should go to bed now....am actually shattered but head is buzzing with thoughts, random ones mind you......
