Can honestly say that it took me a little bit by surprise.........I had been working and living in France for the past few months doing what i do best .......fixing things and building new stuff.......basically i was renovating property there...........The south west part of France is a gorgeous place to be honest.
Things were going great .................i worked the hours i needed to...and pretty much spent the rest of the time relaxing and clearing my head of all the crazy~ness that had been filling my head up in the months that ultimatly led to me leaving the UK.............
SOOOOOOOO anyhoo.........i had started having a few breathing difficulties ....tightening of the chest ......unable to actually lie down on my back and waking up in the morning full of wind ( i would burp the stored wind out for about 10 minutes )......didnt really notice my neck being all that enlarged ........but why would i i have a large neck anyway......then came the black-outs ; four in total..............and i was scared.......i put it down to the fact i must have a collapsed lung and there was not enough oxygen getting to my brain......so i spoke to my local doctor......take some anti-biotics and if your not better in 2 days we will have to send you to the hospital..........no chance i said.....i am going to book a flight to the UK now......decided that it would be better to have it checked out in the UK .....i could fly back get looked at then return back to France without any one knowing i was back in the uk............
on monday the 14th of June 2010 i arrived at Bangor hospital explained my situation to the lady at the front desk and waited to be called .......did the ritual waiting about for what seemed to be an age.......(me and my rucksack).................finally got called in explained again what i THOUGHT was happening and they sent me for a chest X-Ray........all was going pretty well up to this point...........
so there i am sitting waiting for the results of my scan when they tell me that a specialist has been called and is on his way down.......think thats ok they must need to just confirm what i thougt.............then the specialist shows up looks at the x-ray and i hear him say that he wanted to call somone else ...........next thing there are four people around my bed asking if they can just check my neck and chest.............started to get a bit freaked out ....its only a collapsed lung ( not in any way saying that this is in any way a small problem) but then he tells me from the size of my neck he would like me to stay in so that they could run some tests......biopsy was mentioned ....had no idea what that was.......hhodgkins was mentioned, again no idea and then the word CANCER popped out of his mouth......i thought yeh right your pulling my leg i'm only 30 so i dismissed it and started thinking i am furkin starving i could do with food ......
waited around a bit more before they decided to move me to the furkin cancer ward.......didnt realise it was the cancer ward till later that night lol.......remember i have been carrying a 20 kg rucksack around for the last couple of days i cant breathe cos of my chest ....feeling pretty bad in myself and then they turn up with the worst looking wheel chair you have ever seen in your life,; and as soon as you sit on it you automatically start feeling useless its mental.......
i was told nil by mouth from 12 am as to have my biopsy at 1pm the next day.....again no food this is wrong i am a growing lad........i love food .....still none the wiser what is going on or what was really wrong with me......
so 1pm comes and goes starting to get hunger pains now lol......than i am told i willl not be going till 4pm......please bear in mind nil by mouth means nil by mouth....no chuffing water and i like to drink at least a couple of litres a day.
Good writing Kev!
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